I’m sad today.
It’s raining outside, for starters. Rain has just about never helped anyone feel better about anything. Plus, I’ve drained my energy reserves. I’ve been studying like crazy for this dumb test, and I’m still not ready for it. When it’s raining outside and I’m tired, I don’t deal with things as well as I normally do.
So, I guess that’s going to be my excuse for why I’m crying in my office on a Tuesday evening. Someone said something to me that hurt my feelings. I mean, hurt my feelings? What am I, in Pre-K? I’m a grown-ass woman. I should be able to deal with a teeny hurt feeling. Singular! It was just one feeling! But sometimes one feeling is all it takes. One feeling, piled on top of a heap of missed hours of sleep, hundreds of pages of study notes, and gloomy skies which show no sign of relenting.
I’ll be okay soon*. Luckily, I’m starting to get a handle on my coping mechanisms. Step 1 is to cry. Step 2 is to have a good, cathartic emotional purge via the blog**. Step 3 is take a nap. Good night.
*Note: I’m over it already. Crying helped. Crying always helps.
**Note #2: Step 1 and Step 2 often happen simultaneously.